I've gotten to a point in my life where I just. don't. care.
If someone doesn't like me. Tough.
Want to chew me out for no reason? Okay then.
The events of last week really hit the final nail on the coffin for me.
I'm at the point where I'm not even bothering crying over it because I'm just all cried out (contrary to the picture at the bottom of this post). Really. And besides, my tears don't affect their stone hearts anyways, so what's the point?
Last week showed me just how much those people don't care. How they never have. All of their alleged "love" for me is a lie. A ruse. And I'm done with it. All of it.
From now on I only care for those that care for me.
With all that being said, I also have this horrible ache in my heart. Not because of them, mind you. Oh no. This ache is far deeper. I can't go into details, but it's one of the most painful things to have a loved one in pain themselves. If I could do anything to take their pain away, I would do it in a heartbeat. And this ache is also partly I just feel trapped nowadays. And I just want to get out of here so badly. Go to another country. Any country. And just never look back. And this isn't about escaping my problems. This is one of those things where you just have to move on, sometimes. Some problems just can't be resolved so why dwell on them?
Oh, I hope to God things get better. And soon.
This ache is just unbearable at times.
