I feel really depressed & sad right now. I've been trying to distract myself with other things but nothing really seems to be working. Yeah, I'll be distracted for a few, but then my mind is back on Allen again. :-\
I'm not going to surgarcoat things and say that we stayed good friends after graduation. Unfortunately, I lost touch with him after HS (as is the case of many people I went to HS with with the exception of a few good friends--yeah I'm friends with some HS friends on fb, but those are more of passing acquaintances more than anything else, once again with the exception of the handful that I do properly stay in touch with).
But the thing is, in regards to Allen is that when I would be having trailing thoughts about HS, he would almost always come into my mind.
And this was b/c back in 10th grade, I had a crush on this student that had moved here in 8th grade, and I had been crushing on him since 9th grade-he ended up moving 1/2way through 9th...Okay anyways, Allen and I had physical science together in 10th grade & when we were talking once (which was a miracle for me back then, since I was so painfully shy)-he was being his usual goofball self and managed to figure out that I was crushing on this guy. And ever since that day, & all througout HS, he would call me "Mrs. Oh" (that was the guys last name-he was Korean, btw) hahaha-God, it still makes me laugh to think about that. And that was just our little joke. I'm pretty sure he never told anyone that I liked the guy. And whenever he would call me that, I would just be like "Oh my God, shut up!!" *embarrassed* but I would always laugh. :]
It was in that grade that I found out that he had moved here from Chicago. When exactly, I don't remember, but I do remember this much. That he loved it here. The reason being that in Chicago, I guess his family wasn't that well off so they had to live in the more ghetto area. And I remember him telling me that moving here had been a great thing for him because they were a lot better off here financially and they could afford to live in a much better arrangement than they had in the city. That they were out of the ghetto. I looked him up on fb and saw that he had been going to Atlanta Technical College there. Had I known he had an fb, I would have added him ages ago. He was one of those guys I would have loved to keep in touch with & I swear I'm not just saying all this b/c he passed away. I mean every word of it.
This guy had hopes and dreams and goals and they were all cut short b/c he happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. He didn't even have the gun! The scuffle was between the other 2 guys...dear God. *shakes head*
Man, I really, truly miss him. It just hurts my heart & I just want to cry right now.
I hope God grants you a wonderful place in Heaven, man. You deserve it.
Rest in Peace.
Much Love,
Sarah
I got this pic from a friends fb album-I cropped her out in respect of her privacy.
This next one I got from his own fb. It's small b/c I'm unable to see the full size.
